High Impact Mom

Ok, I know you’ve heard it all before, but I suck. I suck at writing consistently, even when I put a schedule and have really good intentions of doing it. Don’t get me wrong, I love to write…hell, I’d rather write…or read…more than just about anything, but it’s being consistent that’s so freakin hard. And I can’t lie and pretend that I live this uber-interesting life (even though the next two weeks will be exciting), but I do have thoughts and questions and passions I want to share with you.  But I am having the hardest time finding the…well…rhythm to write. I know that sounds weird, trust me, I’ve played that last sentence over and over in my head for a week. But it is what it is.

Here I am headed to Blissdom and Disney in three short days to learn how to grow my writing and “influence” (ha.) to learn how to be a better “something I just barely am”.  I am working more than I thought I would and it has been a bit overwhelming, but I’m hoping that as we all get used to working together we’ll develop a smooth flow to our interactions.  But it won’t change the fact that I will still have to put in several hours a day working (let me insert here that I love my job, it’s a dream job…but it takes long hours)…I will still struggle to find the time if I don’t find a schedule that works.

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30 minutes later….

So like what happened right there, I started writing this…then got 3 new “work” emails AND I’m participating in a Twitter party given by the fantastic Amy from Resourceful Mommy and Global Influence.

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45 minutes later…

Ah k, party is over and I’m sadly not a winner. But hey, at least I can come back here and write a little more about how I never write, have nothing to write about, yet have plenty to say. But that’s just it. I do. I have plenty to say, but it’s not life-changing, it won’t make you money, it probably isn’t going to make you a better person/mom, and it won’t end world hunger. Hell, I can’t even promise that it’ll be funny or make any sense. In fact, it might include gratuitous cuss words like this one. But you know what? That’s just me.

This is who I am. I’m reliable to everyone but me. And yeah, I cuss. Sometimes. But you know what that doesn’t make me a bad person.

Something else? Ok, we just barely make ends meet sometimes, but I don’t share that with you because I figure you’re all going through it too so why heap it on?

*And before anyone jumps in here with how I attend conferences and am going to Disney so I shouldn’t complain, I would like to say that 1) It’s not really any of your business if I go to a conference 2) I couldn’t attend these conferences were it not for generous sponsors and 3) We’ve been saving for Disney since Bigs was born, so this we could afford. *

I want to write…really I do. I want to tell you all about how Bigs walked backwards into a grocery shelf today at our local grocery store and threw the biggest fit I was sure someone would think I was beating her, but do you want to hear about it? Does it matter to anyone outside my immediate family? No, probably not…but it matters to me.

I am going to keep working at finding a schedule (sleep, blogging, family, house, and work) that will allow me to write here as often as I would like…but if I’m not around again for awhile, don’t give up on me..I will be back.

In fact, it might be easier if you would just sign up for the RSS feed or Email (will only email when I update) up on the right hand side of the header, so you don’t have to do any of the work to keep up with whether or not I’m posting…or being boring…or whatever.

I’m signing off because I feel better and I don’t have much else to say.

Thanks for “listening.” I love you guys.

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Tags: excuses, I suck, not blogging

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